“i am finally seeing why i was the one worth leaving.”
a picture i got an A for in photo.
I have negativity flowing through my veins as of late. I dont know what it is. I’m just in “be an asshole” mode. I know i dont like posts like this, but hey, im in asshole mode. I dont care what you think about it. You probably stopped reading about 2 lines ago anyway.
Everything has gone to shit and i think im getting real sick. Not like im gonna get a cold sick or im gonna get the flu sick, but i just might die sick. im anti-deathtalk too. fuck em. i took a cold shower becuase i was all hot and what not. My nose started to bleed like a motherfucker while i brushed my teeth. Not because of picking, but just because. i felt dizzy afterwards and couldnt walk straight. I felt that if i got some rest, i wouldnt wake up from it. This has been happeneing a lot in the past few months. Dad is worried that im gonna die,but hes just pessimistic like that. My brain is bleeding to death. Everything i keep inside of me and away from you came out of me in the form of a nosebleed, and man there was a lot of blood.
This depressing post continues my friends. I never open up to any of you and it has been suggested that i do so. Its starting to make me sad. I’m usually one to try to cheer someone up, but i dont have the energy to do that anymore. I have no cool street art for you. Sorry.
Its all on the fence. I lack motivation and drive. Im on a path of self destruction and there are few who can save me. I only stick around for them. i found myself venting by screaming at the top of my lungs at the night sky. that was kinda nuts. Its all kind of nuts. i have no direction and dont know if i want what i want for the right reasons. i dont deserve that kind of attention anyway.
The only one that makes me feel like its worth sticking around doesnt know what it does to me to know that they wish of better days. Im waiting for my blankets to be done drying so i can goto sleep. I havent washed the softest one yet. Im afraid ill fuck it up. Supersize me was good. Valerios bakers pick their noses. This post is going no where. i like japan tea. i want you to know, hes not coming back. Go do something productive and positive while i drown myself in negativity and sadness because im done complaining to a crowd that cant read more than one paragraph. Dont be intimidated by an abundance of words.
|mood| Its finally tomorrow today.